I've been searching for a book I read some time ago. It's about a woman who lives in a society where if you are in the military, they wipe your mind after each mission.
The book is about a time when she is no longer in the military, but running mercenary missions.
When she meets people who recognize her, they tell her stories of her past. She is some kind of war hero, but for doing very bad inhumane things.
The book is named after her attempts to hack into her blocked memories, in her sleep, in an attempt to reclaim her identity. But I forget what the title is.
I thought the title had the word
carbon in it, but searches for that name always return results for
altered carbon which is a different series. Also
steal may be related or in the title.
I picked up the book at Powell's book store in Portland in 2010, and it was on a shelf of nominees for some award that year. I believe it was the Hugo's but I'm not sure.
All suggestions welcome.