I remember reading a short, perhaps 10 pages, sci-fi story, perhaps from the 1960's, pre New Wave or soon after, about a space shuttle crew member who routinely awakened from the rocket's blast-off induced blackout before everyyone else, who was secretly in love with the captain and used the few precious moments alone with him to gently stroke the captain's hair, face and lips.
A radical plot for its time, poignant and touching, for which I've never been able to find a reference. I believe the inexpensive paperback book in which the story appeared was a collection of unrelated short stories.
Full details of what the plot was about weren't revealed until the last paragraph or two. Seems, in light of New Wave and subsequent developments, this story deserve at least a footnote somewhere, but Google comes up empty.